Edge Of Loving You

You call it fire, I called it home Even when it burned through bone

You chased warmth and smoke and ash I stayed still, just hoped it'd last

You say we danced with open scars But the stars burned out before the wish

I was standing still, hands outstretched While you rewrote me in the dark

June came and you never asked Why silence felt like my only mask

You missed the part where I finally broke Where all I wanted was one real love note

What if you just said sorry, would I have stayed

Would your hands have touched mine, really in the mess we made

What if you let the curtain fall and met me Because I risked it all, I wasn't perfect

But I was there, you wrote up storms, I survived the strikes

I was never worth an apology, not worth a fight But expected me to grovel like you were always right

You felt the cracks, I saw them too But I never stopped reaching my hand to you

You exposed my secrets, soft and sweet I held yours throughout my grief

If we were light, you say, then why the shade? Why write the things done to me out in the songs you made

I was always sure about what I wanted, it was you Then you changed my eyes and all the stories from blue to brown

I didn't leave to start a fight I left because you lost your light

All I asked was hear my side Not rewrite the terms every time I cried

What if you just said sorry, what if you'd held my hand? Let love mean more than everything she showed

You called me fire, called me ghost But I was the one who showed up most

I didn't lie, I gave everything away for you, for us With only slight delay, you only saw me through your fears

I was ripped open alone, with all my gears Let's not pretend we're broke and all we ever were was bruised

You keep pretending it's only freedom you care to lose

But if you ask why I let go It's cause I begged and you said no

I've never been enough for anyone to choose What if you just said sorry, once out loud

Not in lyrics, not to a crowd What if you looked at all I gave, the ways I tried, the way I stayed

Maybe we were fireworks at dusk But don't ask if we lost us

When I was burning just to be seen And you were gone before I could mean

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