This Is On Me

I knew I should say something

I opened my mouth

Then didn't

And that wasn't an accident

I chose another normal night

Another "we'll talk later"

I kept my voice even

So I wouldn't have to deal with yours

I wasn't waiting for the right time

I was hoping it would go away

That's different

I know that now

This is on me

Not the timing, not the situation

This is on me

I stayed quiet

Because quiet was easier

I knew it mattered, I still didn't speak

This didn't just happen

This is on me

I do this thing where I delay

Until things feel heavier than they need to be

Then I act surprised

When you start pulling back

I tell myself I'm keeping peace

But really I'm avoiding a moment

I don't want to sit in

So I let it turn into this instead

I remember thinking

If I don't say it now

It won't be worse later

I was wrong

This is on me

I let it drag

Instead of stopping it

This is on me

I chose comfort

Over saying what I knew

I saw it coming, I didn't move

This didn't just happen

This is on me

I'm not asking you to understand

I'm not explaining myself

I'm just admitting

I helped create this

No big moment, no argument

Just a lot of times

I stayed silent on purpose

This is on me

I knew better

That's the part I can't ignore

This is on me

I watched it change

And did nothing

I didn't lose control, I gave it up

This didn't just happen

This is on me

I see it happening

And I'm still here

This is on me