Anxious Blade

Awake inside another dream

Falling far, losing teeth

I grip the wheel, gaining speed

Brakes faltering

Will I ever learn how the pattern starts?

With sleep-heavy eyes and racing thoughts

Hands tied to the shadow of all I've done

Can't brace for the fall

Feel the tightness in my chest, like a hand around my heart

Daylight starts to burn and doesn't stop

Try to catch my breath before it all

Is bringing me down again

Is this real or just a dream?

Loop of false awakening

All I want, out of reach

Mind faltering

How long will this go on before I start

Driving an anxious blade right through my heart?

Now I'm asking myself how it got this far

A shot in the dark

Feel the tightness in my chest, like a hand around my heart

Daylight starts to burn and doesn't stop

Try to catch my breath before it all

Is bringing me down again

Race against the clock

Hesitate to start

Lost in spiral thought

Know it's my own fault (With good intent, you know I tried)

Race against the clock (A list too long, my eyes are tired)

Hesitate to start (I feel the weight under the gun)

Lost in spiral thought (Another day with nothing done)

Know it's my own fault