Rookie (Live From Club Krome,United States/2002)

Rookie, I never thought this could be me

I guess you never do until it's happening to you

Like all the fun turns into shame

And all the could have beens rearrange

So little time, so many crimes

Guilt like a chain chokes my will away

Redemption never seemed so cruel

And all my Gods never seemed so weak

Wake up, engage now

Derailed and enraged, it used to be so easy

Get up, Im game now

Sick and I'm tame, counting cost with lost

Where is the hope they gave

Don't think that I can't hear you laugh

I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me

Drink to pills, to shots turns into shock

A habit and a pawn

For every hand goes round

The pain gets so damned loud

The hammer hits and I'm down

Trust no one, hey, why should I

They gave me the poison

Dressed like life cheated

Smacked up and diseased

Cry to sleep and fight to eat

Used to be a pro at this

Now I've broken my own wrist

Rotten teeth and life unsung

You'll forget me when I'm gone