I'm Not "Supposed" to Be Anything

I used to get angry

Goddamn I used to get so angry

I used to punch things, break things

It really used to fucking scare me

I used to be so lonely

I used to be so unhappy

I drowned myself in wine

I don't wanna feel anything

I drowned myself in wine

Don't wanna feel anything

I drowned myself in wine

I used to be so unhappy

I used to go to college

I was gonna be a physicist

It goes undergrad, masters, PhD

I'll see you in 12 years

But now I'm a drop out

I guess I'll never make my mom proud

But I am pretty proud of what I'm doing with my life now

I am pretty proud of how I live my life now

And I will not feel bad

That I'm living for myself now

And I have learned

To stop measuring my self-worth

By the standards set by a culture that I want no part of

If I had stayed on the path that they had made

Well I don't know if I would have survived it

So now I am not lonely

Cause I have found a community

Of folks who won't let this culture tell them

Who they are supposed to be

And I feel angry

It's cause this system that's obsessed with productivity

Has tried to tell us that the value of a human can be measured

In spreadsheets

Told the boys to be strong and not to cry

Told the girls to just shut the fuck up

But we won't shut the fuck up

We will kick and scream till you stop telling us who we're

Supposed to be

Cause I'm not supposed to be anything

But I am closer everyday to the person that I wanna be