If I Die Young

I know I ain't perfect

So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past

I pray and I hope that it's worth it

Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up

And my head's fucked up

I need more than a surgeon

But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain

Now I got loose screws in my head

Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus

So... So if I die young

Can you carry the weight of my name

And promise to stay cuh this life is tough

And tell me that you ain't giving up

Cus I know that it hurts way more than love

And tell me that you love my soul

I been writing these rhymes and feeling low

Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold

Everybody dies one day so I live my day

Like this, in the present

And sometimes it rains wen I'm feeling pain

I just rap it all up and I keep my distance

That's why you hear me drop every second

They ask me why I don't get mentioned

It's cus I rap real shit, I don't think bout hits

All now I been sending a message

And I been hurt so much

Now you think that I'm perfect

Really I ain't inna the drama

They tell me I'm deserving the world

All over a girl, I been a disaster

Drowning my thoughts with lyrics

They can't even hear it, fuck it just get me a plaster

I bleed so much that I'm drowning the plaster

I've ripped out flesh so maybe it's karma cus'

I know I ain't perfect

So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past

I pray and I hope that it's worth it

Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up

And my head's fucked up

I need more than a surgeon

But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain

Now I got loose screws in my head

Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus

So... So if I die young

Can you carry the weight of my name

And promise to stay cuh this life is tough

And tell me that you ain't giving up

Cus I know that it hurts way more than love

And tell me that you love my soul

I been writing these rhymes and feeling low

Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold

You know I been going through mental stress

I would say I'm depressed but I ain't even pressed

And I got so much space in my head

I don't need backup cuh my feelings compressed

I cloud up my mind with thoughts

There's 48 laws Talk less & conceal my intent

Watching my bars fly over your head

I got birds-eye view when I'm surfing the net

Cus everybody talks and I just show action

I spend more on family and friends

And then I invest, give myself a fraction

And if I had a girl I'd spoil her too

Like my mum love see her reaction

Cus I know that life's too short

If they take me away then I won't respawn

So I spend my pay and carry support

And low-key man I miss my therapist

Money buys freedom and gives me a chance

Bailed me out my emotions I couldn't control them

Cuh my life's been hard

I still Reminisce bout' the girl that I left

And it sucks, it was love but I broke her heart

Really wanna leave a legacy on this place

But what if one day I take drugs cus'

I know I ain't perfect

So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past

I pray and I hope that it's worth it

Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up

And my head's fucked up

I need more than a surgeon

But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain

Now I got loose screws in my head

Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus

So... So if I die young

Can you carry the weight of my name

And promise to stay cuh this life is tough

And tell me that you ain't giving up

Cus I know that it hurts way more than love

And tell me that you love my soul

I been writing these rhymes and feeling low

Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold