Sunswallow

I break my mind into a million pieces

Put my words into sentences and paragraphs to build a thesis

Son of a sailor built for tailoring words

Served on a platter produced by record nerds

The oddness is godless

Without a touch of consciousness provided by the sound of promise

And we gon' make it a point to make mistakes

Break handshakes amongst the fakes

A gold bar in a pile of dirt

A brick in the wall with so much love it cannot hurt

And I'm bezerk with an idea created in fear

If we don't make it past here there is no career

As I stand in the house built by my art

I got the nerve to say that things are tearing apart

Backstabbed by the feel of goods sold by my fans

This is our future displayed in their hands

Undesired, rotten and gifted

The greatest story never told and man we lived it

So come get it cause we don't believe in being selfish

We're not selfish

Say the sun might swallow you

So what's a man supposed to do?

Cause I can't save us again

And in the loss and confusion

We might craft our own sun

And make a run for something grand

I lose it all for my addictions

And my penmanship slowly reflects my affliction

So I build up to break down

Still screaming at one another just to make an honest sound

I never thought that you would listen

I'm dumbfounded by the moments that you even pay attention

And I ache for permission

In an attempt to be another name you should mention

So I sit and stare at the sun

Blueprint the plan so I can maybe make one

And change something cause my heart grow stale

Fill up my life, paint in the pale

I lack focus, fabricate direction

Push forward, void of perfection

Absent-minded, hard to find it

Comfortable when all of the pain's subsided

Bite my tongue and run from everyone

Cause I never face my fears of being outdone