Growing Up Without Me

I'd like to forget you the way a writer forgets their own words

I'd Like to forgive you and give myself the quiet I deserve

But when I find myself letting go

I find myself a bit confused

Cause letting go of you feels like letting go of my youth

Like when we sat on the beach and watched our shadows get longer

And that night you told me you were so scared of getting older

Now you're growing up without me, aren't you?

You're filling in the spaces

In between missing me and wanting something new

You're spinning, falling down

You're screaming with no sound

Cause your safe haven's in a different town

Should I keep waiting, patiently?

While you're growing up without me

I've been stirring all summer

Thought I might catch a reflection of you

And I can't help but wonder

Are you heading home anytime soon?

Did I see you driving down Canal Street?

Did you think that's where you might find me?

Or where we sat on the beach and watched our shadows get longer

And that night you told me you were so scared of getting older

Now you're growing up without me, aren't you?

You're filling in the spaces

In between missing me and wanting something new

You're spinning, falling down

You're screaming with no sound

Cause your safe haven's in a different town

Should I keep waiting, patiently?

While you're telling good lies, getting fucked up at night

You're cursing the sky, getting used to goodbyes

And when you start to cry, you never really know why

And I could have it wrong, maybe I do

But it hurts a little less to make a guess and call it true

That growing up without me

Feels like growing up without you