The Apologies You’ll Never Hear

I practice every sentence

In the mirror late at night

Trying to sound stronger

Trying to sound right

I say your name out loud

Like it might bring you near

But all these perfect apologies

Never make it there

I finally found the words

You begged me for back then

But courage showed up late

Again

These are the apologies you'll never hear

The truths I was too scared to say

I'd give anything for one more moment

But I lost my chance that day

I was proud when I should've been honest

Silent when I should've fought

Now I'm carrying these apologies

To a heart that can't be caught

You used to ask me how I felt

I'd say, "I'm doing fine"

Didn't know that shutting down

Was you slowly saying goodbye

You cried beside me quietly

I stared straight ahead

I thought love meant holding on

Not hearing what you said

I see now what you needed

When it's already gone

Funny how the truth waits

Till you're alone

These are the apologies you'll never hear

The confessions I delayed

I learned too late that love needs proof

Not promises postponed and vague

I was afraid of breaking

So I barely tried

Now I'm drowning in apologies

You'll never hear tonight

If regret had a sound

It'd be your voice in my head

Asking for reassurance

That I never said

I'd tell you I was wrong

I'd tell you I was scared

But those words don't mean a thing

If you're no longer there

I hope you're loved out loud now

I hope you're finally seen

By someone who says the words

I kept locked in me

These are the apologies you'll never hear

But they're honest, every one