Twenty-eight

I just wanna kill this shit

I don't see another way out

I've been crawling on my knees for this

Been afraid of my own damn self

I'll see you on the other side

One night

With an empty life, in the daylight

Seeing 28 where the stage is bright

Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right

This is torture for a soul who hangs on to a wish

I grab my stress and pity texts I add it to the list

You took control of who I am when I was just a kid

And now I'm 21 I lie about my tears again

Got me for everything

You never fail to show up

Stole opportunities from me and labeled it just like love

I spend a week inside my issues and I feature the front

I leave my room in early morning sober smile like a

Angel

A fearless bitch

You will never let me be those things until the pain lifts

I got no more energy for you who thought that I'd win

Needing help you kick me

While I'm drowning in the deep end

Little by little by little

I figure you out

Nobody'd ever believe it

I let my guard down

I just wanna kill this shit

I don't see another way out

I've been crawling on my knees for this

Been afraid of my own damn self

I'll see you on the other side

One night

With an empty life, in the daylight

Seeing 28 where the stage is bright

Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right

You don't even know what kind of pressures on my shoulders

I've been having all the weight on me since I was 10 years old

And now the more that I am growing is the more I'm looking backward

Trying to see what I did wrong and is this what I'm truly after

Factoring in the people that I'm letting go of

The necessary steps to this I'll never take control of

And I can see the way they judge me I can see the way they smile

I can tell if they support us or just looking for a ride

Writing down the words and my heart beats a little faster

I don't want you to be worried but you know what happens after

If I only took a minute just to breathe and feel the laughter

I'd be closer to my friends and family far from this disaster

Man it got really hard

I just wanna kill this shit

I don't see another way out

I've been crawling on my knees for this

Been afraid of my own damn self

I'll see you on the other side

One night

With an empty life, in the daylight

Seeing 28 where the stage is bright

Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right