A Shattered Memory

I wake up and I put on the face I keep for you

This perfect life is just a render, it's not the truth

Every "I'm okay" is a line I've rehearsed

Another day avoiding my own fucking worst

I'm a ghost in my own clothes, a glitch in the machine

Playing the lead role in a life that isn't me

And I'm so tired of the effort, I'm so tired of the fight

To be the person that you see when you turn on the light

'Cause I'm just a collection of corrupted files

This hollow shell is smiling, but it hasn't for a while

I tried to be the person that you needed me to be

But all I am is pieces of a shattered memory

And this perfect version of me is just killing me

I walk through crowded rooms, I'm a ghost inside the frame

And everybody's saying that I don't seem the same

I'm nodding and I'm laughing but I am not really here

I'm drowning in the static, consumed by my own fear

And I can't ask for help, 'cause I don't know where to start

How do you fix the fucking wiring in a broken heart

So I'll just keep on faking, 'til there's nothing left to fake

For both our sakes... for fuck's sake

'Cause I'm just a collection of corrupted files

This hollow shell is smiling, but it hasn't for a while

I tried to be the person that you needed me to be

But all I am is pieces of a shattered memory

And this perfect version of me is just killing me

And maybe I am better off completely on my own

A system crash that's better left abandoned and alone

This whole performance is a lie... a tragedy

So please just turn around and don't look back at me

'Cause I'm just a collection of corrupted files

This hollow shell is smiling, but it hasn't for a while

I tried to be the person that you needed me to be

But all I am is pieces of a shattered memory

And this perfect version of me is just killing me