You Ominously End (Audiotree Live Version)

I yearned to be the first to reach out on your birthday

Oh, what a twisted way of showing you I care

You threatened to show all your new friends our secret handshake

And like Halloween, I'll be here once a year

When you tried to take your life

We're just happy you survived

Confirmed you can't do nothing right

Like you couldn't even die if you tried

You're not mad but I can tell I've disappointed you

The kind of quiet creates tension in a home

Three hundred people in this town

Not one worth driving to

You're the reason for all the crosses by the road

I am all-knowing about you

It's a burden I bear

I think my brain would be empty

If not for the cell we share

I fixate on

Shit you forgot

Like a hard drive of your half-baked thoughts

When you tried to take your life

You felt ashamed that you survived

Thought if there was one thing you'd do right

It'd be the best Irish goodbye

Man, I'm missing you to death

But it hasn't come to that

You can ominously end

But not yet

Not yet

Not yet

Not yet

You're dead set on leaving the world

The same way you had found

I'll crane my neck looking up to somebody in the ground

I was born to stay right here

And you can't stay in one spot

I don't move so you can reference

How far you have gone

Look back until I'm lost

'Til you've finally forgot

If you were always notified when you were in the dreams I've dreamt

I think you'd be the one ignoring all my calls

I've known you long enough to know when you are playing dead

When I check in, it's like I'm feeling for a pulse