Don't You Want To Share The Guilt?

BBQ food is good

You invite me out to eat it, I should

Go, but I'm feeling kind of nervous

And not quite myself

So I'm running late on purpose

And I know this won't help

How things have become between us

But if I go you'll give me hell

And that I don't know how to fix it

Is making me unwell

Well

I arrive at your house

But you've just got up

And you are wearing a towel

And your eyes look dark

I help to dry your body

And I see your cut

So I give you a plaster

And we cover it up

I say, "Have you been crying?"

And you say, "Shut up"

So we sit in the garden

And touch the grass

With our hands

The sun is going down now

And it's been okay

You tell me all the things you did

While I was away

And this worries me somewhat

But you say you're fine

Listen

Can you hear it?

Does it speak?

Will I feel it?

Will it hurt?

Am I near it?

I don't know

I don't know how more people haven't got mental health problems

Thinking is one of those stressful things I've ever come across

And not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy

I think I should read more books

Learn some new words

My sister used to read the dictionary

I'm gonna with that

I'd like to travel

I want to see India and the pyramids

A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France

I'm not sure about rivers, they scare me

But I love swimming, I'm good at it

And when I swim, I count the laps

And this help me relax

When I was younger, I saw a house burn down

And I walked past it for the next six years

Derelict, black, chalky and dangerous