Текст песни
Ima paint the walls with my bloodshot eyes
Put down the phone cause I don't know why
Everybody I love wanna make my choices for me
I wish that they could tell that I don't wanna live at all
No I can't count my sins
Oh I never shoulda left him but I did oh I fucked that up
Can't take back what I said no
Cause I'm too weak
I don't know how to fix this
Oh I'm too weak
I had to suffer you missed it
You were never there but I listened
I tried to call out for you
I built everything here for you
It's time to realize that you can't save your soul
Fuck it
I guess I don't know much but if I know one thing it's that I don't want love anymore
Couldn't swallow my pride so ima lay on the floor
Make a suicide pact then refrain to the chorus
Because what am I? Without him I might die
I got way too drunk and threw up three times
I'm nauseous scrolling through your comments
I don't wanna know shit
Let me dissolve my sounds
No I don't wanna let you down
I built this world you can't escape it now
I spent my whole life tryna find a way out
When it's all useless if I'm without him
Fooled by the fountain
Thought I moved mountains
Curse my soul and erase my doubts
What will I do if I'm without him?
What will I do if I'm without?
I don't remember anything I said
I prolly wrote that when I was off my meds
I got a little dramatic and sent a suicide text
Then I threw up for the third time
Oh I know
I lost your attention in the typos
He don't love you baby
Oh I know
I did this all for you
I did it all for you
Baby I know
I've been chasing this dream for way too long
Now I'll never be free, where did I go wrong?
When everybody I see couldn't be more fake, I had to hide myself in the DreamScape