Made Of Both

I don't bleed out loud, that's just not me

But there's a cut behind my grin you'll never see

I made peace with the weight, didn't ask it to go

Some things don't leave — they just sink real low

Built the roof while my ribs were cracked

Smiled through the echoes, never looked back

Don't call it brave — it was just the cost

Of keeping the house when the compass was lost

I'm made of both — the vow and the void

The quiet hells and the lives I destroyed

You think I'm stone, but I'm stitched with screams

I don't bury ghosts — they show up in dreams

I'm made of both — the flame and the smoke

The things I meant, and the ones I broke

If you want a man who's never split

Then you want someone who's never lived

She said, "If she loved you, why not go?"

But this was never about starting a show

I never chased escape — I chased a spark

And held it too long till it lit up the dark

I didn't pick her over you, or you over her

I picked the boy who still calls me sir

So I stay — not clean, not pure

But steady enough for what he'll endure

I'm made of both — the wound and the shield

The things I confessed and the ones I sealed

You want tidy? You want neat?

Go find someone who's never known defeat

I'm made of both — the burn and the grace

A thousand regrets stitched into my face

But I still get up, still stay in the fight

Even when love don't make it right

I held her hand

In my mind, not in my life

I chose the truth

Even when it cut like a knife

She walked out quiet

Didn't slam the door

But the silence hit louder

Than ever before

I'm made of both — the scar and the skin

The ones I lost and the ones I let in

If I said I'm fine, I lied

But I'm still here, and I still try

I'm made of both — the storm and the still

The part that breaks and the part that will