I Wish I Wasn't

I wonder how

How can it be that two souls live beneath my chest?

I wander on through the snowfall and the firestorm

I wish I wasn't afraid of

The haunted valley

I wish I wasn't a failure

That nobody needs

In the depths of my mind, I'm lost and confined

A question gnaws at my core, I can't deny

Am I a mere illusion, a ghost in the crowd?

Or do I carry a soul screaming out loud?

I wish the voices in my head stopped their shrill tongues

Just for a second so I could breathe some fresh air

For a moment so I could stop sinking into despair

I am a traitor in the face of myself

A slave to a maggot that eats away my soul

I ask the mountains to consume me as a whole

How long will I be captured in this maze in the hail?

I wonder how can it be that two souls live beneath my chest?

I wander on through the snowfall and the firestorm

I wish I wasn't afraid of

The haunted valley

I wish I wasn't a failure

That nobody needs

That nobody needs

That nobody needs