Halfway to Whole

There's that feeling

I won't be here for long

There just ain't no fixin'

Everything that's wrong

There's no goin'

No, there's no goin' home

'Cause home's been forgotten

For some time spent alone

And my loved ones

They don't call me at all

But they say that they love me

So I tighten my jaw

And I fall back into the weeds

I don't think that it's selfish

For me to be mean

But my music

It don't heal me no more

It got twisted and mangled

For some bills on the board

And my lover

Well, I left her alone

I got lost in my purpose

Then my purpose went cold

I'm a failure

I'm a fucking blackhole

I bought into a liar

And my future got sold

Now I'm tired

Thorns in my side

I don't wanna be here

I don't wanna die

But it's getting old

Oh, I'm getting old

Now I'm stuck on the shoulder

And not even halfway to whole

And I'm halfway to Kansas

And not even halfway to whole

So I summon my demons

'Cause there's no one here I know

And I'm halfway to dyin'

And not even halfway to whole