A Wish

I wish to feel smaller under your sheets

I wish for the whole truth every time you speak

And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me

As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem

You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans

Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough

And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins

And your heart is gonna tear mine away

And I wish to feel smaller under your hands

Though you seem satisfied as you slip mine down your pants

And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me

As you lift up my shirt after asking politely

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be

'Cause it's her you'll always love

And it's her I'll always envy

Wanna end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up

And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins

And your heart is gonna tear mine away

And it's hard to find what I want

When it's buried beneath the biggest rock

I could pay lots of money to help lift it with machines

But I'm not sure you'd cooperate, not sure you'd come clean

And I wish to feel smaller under your sheets

I wish for the whole truth every time you speak

And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me

As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem

You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans

Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough

And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins

And your heart is gonna tear mine away

Is gonna tear mine away