Текст песни
God, why does it feel like everything I've built isn't gonna last?
Dreams are gettin' killed, I don't really deal with depression well
I don't wanna heal, maybe this is hell
Maybe I'll excel, if I look at Hell
Take away the L's, He can never fail
Even when I bail, He defeated Baal
I numb myself, He's my mental health (health)
Help, I'm tryna find the words that rhyme with I'm finally happy
When I open up my mind, all I see is pain, dang
But just 'cause I was lost doesn't mean my heart changed
Sometimes you gotta fall to appreciate
Laughing with your brother, yappin' with your mother
Packin' everything and movin' to another state
You start to wonder, "What if I never signed up for the army?
Would I have a mother?"
What about my sister? God, I swear I miss her
Send me if you hear this, Ma, I'll always love you
Not the perfect son, I'm not the perfect brother
But I swear to God, I'll give up everything to have another
Day in, day out, our past gets in the way
Oh, Lord, when will I hear You?
Have made mistakes, I chose myself, then walked away
Off and on, are they real? (Ooh)
God, why does it feel like everything I've built isn't gonna last?
Dreams are gettin' killed, I don't really deal with depression well
I don't wanna heal, maybe this is hell
Maybe I'll excel, if I look at Hell
Take away the L's, He can never fail
Even when I bail, He defeated Baal
I numb myself, He's my mental health (health)
"Help" is what I used to yell, He's the only one that came, dang
But when it goes wrong, He's the one I wanna blame, ay
'Cause I've made my decisions, I'm the one that lit the flames
Shame is something He don't make me carry
He can take the pain and the loss
All of the shots aimed to myself, suicide thoughts
Gone in the name of Jesus
He bought life with the price of death on the cross
I ain't gotta cry, I ain't gotta claw both of my eyes out
When my mom's name gets dropped, yeah, I miss her lots