Everything I Wanted

Left myself on the island

Didn't even try to fight it

Now I wake up blue

Pulling out my hair

And I pick on you

Handle me with care

Left my mind in a dark place

I can't correct my mistakes

Now I wake up red

Never speak a word

Staying in my head

It's what I deserve

I can't ignore

All of the signs

I've had this feeling before

And I can't take

Back all the times

I've taken the blame

When it wasn't mine

No it wasn't mine

Need something else

Need something else

Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic

I tell myself

I tell myself

That it's everything I wanted

Everything I wanted

Everything I wanted

Lost myself in this city

Trying to make myself busy

So I threw myself right into the crowd

Cause I needed help

Should've asked around

I can't ignore

All of the signs

I've had this feeling before

And I can't take

Back all the times

I've taken the blame

When it wasn't mine

No it wasn't mine

Need something else

Need something else

Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic

I tell myself

I tell myself

That it's everything I wanted

Everything I wanted

Everything I wanted

I tell myself

I tell myself

I tell myself

I tell myself

I tell myself

I tell myself

That it's everything I wanted