Hard On Myself

Hmm, mm-mm

Hmm, mm-mm

I ain't proud of the things I've done

But I sure as hell remember every one

You don't gotta point your finger or raise your voice

Trust me, I already made that choice

I beat myself up better than you could

Dig through memories I never should

Sleep don't visit when regret's around

And I replay shit 'til I break down

I'm hard on myself, worse than they know

I carry guilt like it's carved in bone

Every wrong turn, every bridge I lift

I replay like it's some greatest hit

I don't need help to hate my past

I do that all on my own and fast

You don't have to send me to hell

I'm hard on myself

I see that look like I don't give a damn

But this smile's just my sleight of hand

I laugh to hide what I can't fix

I've mastered pain behind cheap tricks

I've let down folks I'd die for twice

And I've made peace with paying that price

But every sorry I ever said

Echoes back like a shot in my head

I'm hard on myself, way too long

Been dragging that shame like a ten-ton song

I don't need reminders or a jury's night

I've already played judge and I've played guide

I sentence myself with every breath

I don't forgive, I just accept

I'm not tryin' to be someone else

I'm just hard on myself

You ever look in the mirror?

And wish you could apologize to the reflection?

Yeah

I'm hard on myself every damn day

I wear my shame like it won't wash away

There ain't a voice meaner than my own

Ain't a man lonelier than one alone

But I still get up, still try like hell

Even if I never treat myself well

This pain ain't from someone else

I'm just hard on myself

I'm just hard on myself