Pixelated

On the last one kept it real

This album I'm just really tryna show you how it feel

When your demons back from work and they just got some time to kill

Told you last album that I was hearing spirits

Sometimes I wonder if possessions how you get the lyrics

2019 I'd sell my soul you know so you could hear this

Just to hear a proud of you the things I'd do for mama dearest

2005 that was Atlanta I was at my purest

Dad could never pick me up and I would wait but always knew it

Grandma called me trouble child internalized and didn't review it

Lots of things that went unchecked not knowing what their words influenced

I just wanna watch the world burn could you keep it down

Should of never told you I was tryna be your keeper now

Tried to rekindle here with a friend I used to keep around

And somehow there's nothing wrong between us when we talked it out

Found out later he wrote my name down and wished me out

Wished an early death on me and all the things we dreams we talked about

I'm finna drink this whole thing for you and make it easy now

I won't act like I'm self righteous

know my little sisters wouldn't even love me in the slightest so

You could paint me blacker if you wanted and feel entitled

I'm a deadbeat brother, cousin please insert a title

In pain and it's unbridled

Heaven don't seem like a place for me I put that on the Bible

Man this world is not a place for me I tried to take the high road

But I drink know and I spiral I accept it with my eyes closed

Don't know why I be feelin' this shit significant or why you even listenin'

Or why my god would punish me with passion man it's cripplin'

Like really look deep in my eyes you probably see it dwindlin'

I'm keeping up appearances

Two years ago my mom and me had finally closed the distancing

She heard me out and pitching in and in the midst of that I'm losing faith in its sickenin'