i want(ed) To Die

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They tell me that I need some help

Well, I need some help

Fuck protection, I don't need a vest

'Cause the pains trapped in chest

How to heal it, don't make sense

I can't lie, yeah the devil now my only friend

Step inside, it's a real mess

I can't lie, must confess

Fuck the fame and the money, I don't need checks

I'm just doing this for my fam, all I need is rest

Oh, it's time to die, I'm sorry

But Mom, don't you cry

The light in my soul so hard to find

So please, let me rest alone tonight

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They tell me that I need some help

Well, I need some help

Alone tonight, be left beside

There's no more light on the holy night

My soul was left my body

The vengeance inside me keeps growling

(I lost a battle with myself, I hide my feelings on a shelf)

The vengeance inside me keeps growling (my mum tells me I need some help)

(Then send me help)

(See, I lost this battle with myself, these feelings I have never felt)

The vengeance inside me keeps growling

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They're saying that I need some help

Well, I need some help