Where'd It Go Wrong (Manifest A Friend)

What looked like a picture

Was only the frame

What was within it

Was only a stain

So pick me up, baby

And tell me that you're gonna save me, yeah

I remember a place not far from here

Where mother and father live

I was once a boy

And all of this was in

Within my head

Dreaming of a way

Away from this place

Only to stay

An arm's length away

A stone's throw down the road

An inkling of joy

A heart that implodes

For all the wrong reasons

I'm living the things I am

Knowing there's no way out

Oh wait, there's a way in

A heart beating, clasping

Thunder like the earth

I thought I'd made it

But I ain't got there first

And I'll try to breathe

What was left of the fog

But it just felt like poison

And then they took it all

Back home where they never knew my name

I thought I was the king of fuckin' Spain

All the lies that they never wanted seen

I was calling them out like the ones they'd

Read about in history books

I could barely take a look

Oh try it on for size

Wise men, three, two

I am not in disguise

Anymore, wait

I'm trying to take it one by one

It's down the drain

I'm overcome with joy

It's something, oh it's fucking something

The way I feel

It's not even real

I'm drinking coffee

And it's having no effect

I'm smoking hybrids

To the back of the head

And no one's calling

Unless I'm thinking of them

Manifest a friend

Manifest a friend

I've been thinking, baby

Maybe I'm not even alive

I was thinking there's got to be

A place where I could die