Surprise, Surprise

Are you surprised by my conviction?

Or just the courage that it takes?

You never cared for confrontation

Was it fun never taking the blame

For your mistakes?

Are you surprised that I was honest?

Did you want me to run and hide?

I'd never copy your bad habit

And just sit there idly by

Wasting my time

You always assumed

That you knew who I was,

My every move

And you never cared

While I hoped

There was much more than what was there

I fuel a spark

Until it dies

Surprise, surprise

I'm unsurprised by your true colors

So what am I here crying for?

I must be some part of the problem

'Cause I always hope for more

You somehow assumed

That "I miss you"

Was a cruel, insulting phrase

And you ream me out

While I'm searching for the perfect thing to say

You hold the cards

I toe the line

Surprise, surprise

Are you the problem, or am I?

Gave you the world, gave you my life

Got what you need, some hit and run

Was it easy?

Was it fun?

I never change

You got that right

But now our lives are intertwined

Congrats, you've realized all my fears

My ghosts, your shirt, our wasted years

I roam around

I'm out of touch

Am I too proud

Am I too much?

Got what you need, what about me?

Got what you need, what about—

Are you surprised by my conviction?

'Cause sometimes so am I

'Cause I've never felt

Like I fit in any place I've ever been

Except for your shoes

That I've constantly placed myself in

Guess 'll size up

I'll get what's mine

Surprise, surprise