My Head

My haunted head is filled with

Dead and awful things

Visions and images and the

Feelings that they bring

Heaviness and hopelessness

I focus on this feeling

In my heart and how they want to

Tear me down until I fall apart

I pick myself up and realize that

I'm just living a dream

With a mask on my face everyday is Halloween

Born a nightmare but grew up in between

My tortured soul is just a

Ghost in the machine

Ego risers turn to trampolines

We bounce in the dead

And the spirit's unclean

Refreshing your purpose

We be the push by any means

Sharpened like a trust fall for all to see

Hey look at me I been in

Situations the same as you

It's been a nightmare

What I'm going through

I feel like I know what I'm supposed to do

They say they understand but they

Don't have a clue

Holding my head up in times when

I feel like I'm going down

I feel that way when the pressure surmounts

I am breaking down

Under pressure, under strain

Understand my mind's insane

It's too much, caving in

And every time feels like the end

My head filled with memories of

Blood on my hands

Things you've gotta do just

To stack 'em bands

It's a thin line between

Friends and loose ends

Offering two sets when they true friends

Kick you and all your knuckles

Pressure tightened belt buckles

Hold 'em down 'til they cold on the floor

See they not subtle, maggots infect my brain

Now they all drowning into puddles

Look what I've become lost! Get a grip

AK in my hands fully equipped

Try to leave me for the vultures

I adapt to it

And now it's everything they owe

I coming back for it

Revenge is foolish without plans

And everything easy for you to

See up in the stands

Meaning hindsight can only get

Your mind right

Sitting back in the darkness

Not the sunlight let go with a good night

Stay in your head tight

Holding my head up in times when

I feel like I'm going down

I feel that way when the pressure surmounts

I am breaking down

Under pressure, under strain

Understand my mind's insane

It's too much, caving in

And every time feels like the end

You're looking for the wrong place

I think you found it

Welcome to my dark space

My medulla oblongata

And like a car chase, if I'm the driver

My sanity's so far away so why bother?

I've been abandoned by family

So allfather, is this your way of damning me?

I feel like there's nobody understanding me

Holler, nothing but enemies pulling me

Up on the water

And they hope to take me away

From my son and my daughter

If you pray to God you better call her

'Cause I'm about to bring

'em all to slaughter

There's something in my head and it

Keeps telling me to murder

All my enemies and I'm starting

To think maybe I oughtta

Nothing in my head feels right

Fuck it all instead, real life

I just want to know what

Being wrecked feels like

But I cannot control it

So I should not pretend I might get it right

Holding my head up in times when

I feel like I'm going down

I feel that way when the pressure surmounts

I am breaking down

Under pressure, under strain

Understand my mind's insane

It's too much, caving in

And every time feels like the end

Holding my head up in times when

I feel like I'm going down

I feel that way when the pressure surmounts

I am breaking down

Under pressure, under strain

Understand my mind's insane

It's too much, caving in

And every time feels like the end