If I disappear (Role Reversal Remix)

I left pieces of me

Taped to your windows

But you never looked outside

You were always good

At ignoring storms

If they weren't named after you

I spoke in earthquakes

You mistook for silence

And smiled through

My own unraveling

You thought I was patient

I was just fading

I read maps of you

Until my eyes bled

Looking for exits

You never meant to build

I begged the mirror

To lie better

It always refused

I've folded my skin

Into corners of this world

You'll never sweep

Left questions in the floorboards

But you just

Kept walking

If I disappear

Don't come looking

The echo has bruises

From bouncing too long

If I vanish

Pretend you meant to lose me

I've already searched

Until I became

Unfindable

I lit flares in rooms

You locked behind kind words

I danced in the fire

Just to feel something

Like warmth

I built altars

Out of all the things

I wasn't

And worshipped there

Because you never did

If I disappear

Don't whisper my name

Like you own it

I gave it to you

But never saw it again

If I vanish

Don't light candles

Just close your eyes

I've already wandered enough

For both of us