in my head

Father, in my head

I think I'm stronger than I am

I used to say I'll make it if I can

Now, I know I need you

I can't do this on my own

And I don't wanna be what I have been

And I keep on

Making a fool of myself

Don't want to be someone

That just says, "Oh well"

'Cause I know better

Tryna be a go-getter

Altogether though

I feel like I'm no measure

And I know you cautioned me

And it took a while to cotton-on

Everyone that's watching me

Probably thinks that I am dumb

And I keep on slipping up

Into my old pitfalls

Better step it up

'Cause I'm 'bout to lose it all

Father, in my head

I think I'm stronger than I am

I used to say I'll make it if I can

Now, I know I need you

I can't do this on my own

And I don't wanna be what I have been

And I'm so fucking obstinate

Don't know which of my options is

A better final estimate or approximate

I know the steps

I'm just bad at implementing it

And I can't get mad

'Cause I'm the one preventing it

And I know you know my heart

'Cause you're the one who softened it

I hope to keep thee in my mind

More so than I often did

It only takes one time

For me to go and fall off it

Without you, I would probably just go up and bottle it

I think in my head, I

Need something solid

'Cause sometimes in my head I

Feel like I'm falling

Father, in my head

I think I'm stronger than I am

I used to say I'll make it if I can

Now, I know I need you

I can't do this on my own

And I don't wanna be what I have been