With, Love...

Yeah, God knows what's in my heart

Even if they never see it

With love, always with love

I ain't cold, I'm just quiet

Got a storm in my soul

Prayin' every night that my silence don't take its toll

They see distance, I feel depth

I just don't know how to show

That I bleed for them all

Even when I don't glow

Mamas think I'm faded

Homies think I'm ghost

I'm fightin' demons daily

Tryin' not to boast

My heart heavy with affection

But the language got lost

Tryin' to build a bridge

But I can't cover the cost

With love, even when I disappear

With love, even when I'm numb with fear

With love, you don't see me shed a tear

But I'm holdin' on to y'all

Like the cross I revere

With love, when my words don't reach

With love, even silence can preach

With love, it's the ache I can't teach

But I carry you in prayer

Like the stars on a beach

Gospel in my headphones

Pain in my chest

Christ saw the heart

Not just the flesh

So I love like he did

But I fall like the rest

Tryin' to give him my best

But they think it's a test

I ain't fake

I'm just broken

Got no manual to follow

I'm the prodigal son

Tryin' to love through the sorrow

And if I don't say it right

If I don't hug tight

Know I'd fight through the night

Just to see y'all in light

It's not distance, it's defense

Not rejection, it's regret

And the words I never say

Are the ones I won't forget

I love you

But I'm trapped in my mind

By you

But I hide every sign

I pray for

Peace I can't define

So I love you in the dark