Leave the Nets

I'm casting with my hands from the vessel of my heart

Out into the shallows where the world says the fish are

But I'm coming up so empty that I'm calling it a day

Cause even what I'm catching isn't filling up this place

In my heart there is a longing like I'm made for something more

Than going back and forth between the water and the shore

But I'm caught up in these nets because it's all I've ever known

And if I tried to leave I don't know if they'd let me go

Pride and pornography, lies and insecurity, divorce and immorality, shame and all my guilty

Then You called

To leave it all

I didn't get what You were saying

And I had some hesitations

But You never got frustrated

In Your kindness You were patient

When I tripped over my sins

Wasn't the smoothest of transitions

I admit that I'm still slipping

But I promise I'm committed

To Your different kind of fishing

It's just a hard first step

To Leave the Nets

Where You're asking me to go

Is beyond my zone of comfort

It's a side I've never known

But a feeling that I've wanted

Free from all the weight that pulls me down into the bottom

Now I'm deeper even still, but it is not my fear that brought me

Out into these depths

Where the waves get really wicked

I am walking on the water

Cause I know that You are with me

Then You called

To leave it all

I didn't get what You were saying

And I had some hesitations

But You never got frustrated

In Your kindness You were patient

When I tripped over my sins

Wasn't the smoothest of transitions

I admit that I'm still slipping

But I promise I'm committed

To Your different kind of fishing

It's just a hard first step

To Leave the Nets

Sun rising over Galilee

I'm sitting here next to the sea

The ripples reaching at my feet

I here You whisper"follow me"

It's just a hard first step

But I take a breath