I'm scared of what I might confess

You slam the door

I slam my head into the wall inside

Every word you throw

Turns into teeth that I hide behind my smile

I say I'm fine

You say "you're always like this"

This room gets small

And I just clench my fists

I hate you

I hate myself

For letting you drag me straight through hell

This pressure in my chest

Won't let me rest

Won't let me rest

I'm scared of what I might confess

Of what I'll do

What I might wreck

I hate you

I hate myself

And I don't know which hurts me best

You push and poke

Like you wanna see me finally break

"Why so cold?"

You built the storm

Then curse the rain

Bite my tongue

'till I taste that iron shake

One wrong move

And something gives

Something snaps awake

I hate you

I hate myself

For letting you drag me straight through hell

This pressure in my chest

Won't let me rest

Won't let me rest

I'm scared of what I might confess

Of what I'll do

What I might wreck

I hate you

I hate myself

And I don't know which hurts me best

Do you even see me?

Or just the way I bleed for you (for you)

I don't wanna be this

A loaded word you pull the trigger to

If I walk away

Will I still hear you in my head?

If I stay one more day

Will I do things I'll regret?

I hate you

I hate myself

For letting you drag me straight through hell

This pressure in my chest

Won't let me rest

Won't let me rest

I'm scared of what I might confess

Of what I'll do

What I might wreck

I hate you