Raincloud

My skin isn't soft like the people I love

It is rough, it is blemished like me

My hair does not fall like the waves in the ocean

It's messy and damaged, unclean

And God, I try hard to fit in any place

Put a smile on my face, but I can't change, and I'm tired

I am tired

And I try to be just like everyone else

No one will love you if you can't love yourself, is that true?

Do you hate me, too?

When I'm floating like a rain cloud

And I can't hear what you say

Hold me near, let the world disappear

I'm so close, yet I'm so far away

Before the storm even started

I knew it would be this way

I fought for so long against everything wrong

But I'm the reason that I'm not okay

So feel all the shadows and darkness creep in

That's when I know it's about to begin

Never gave me a chance, no, I never could win

I will forever mourn what could have been

My body's not made in the most perfect shape

I just feel clumsy and cold

And my heart is not strong, I just pull it along

Dragging all of this weight gets so old

And God, it's all wrong, I just don't have the strength

To do this all again, even for one more day, I am tired

I'm just tired

I need to get better, I need to find help

But nobody loves me because I hate myself and it's true

What else is there to do?

When I'm floating like a rain cloud

And I can't hear what you say

Hold me near, let the world disappear

I'm so close, yet I'm so far away

Before the storm even started

I knew it would be this way

I fought for so long against everything wrong

But I'm the reason that I'm not okay

So feel all the shadows and darkness creep in

That's when I know it's about to begin

Never gave me a chance, no, I never could win

I will forever mourn what could have been