D.G.F.Y. (What's Not Said)

Dear God fuck you, and your sky of stone

I called your name, but died alone

Knees in ash, hands stained red

No angels came, just ghosts instead

You watched me drown in my own headspace

Fed me hope, then stripped my face

I wore your silence like a noose

You built the gallows what's the use?

Dear God fuck you!

I bled my prayers, you broke me through

You turned your back like cowards do

Now I'm the fire that curses you

Dear God fuck this!

You dressed my pain in righteousness

But all I am is fractured skin

Screaming loud and caving in

You painted heaven with my scars

Hung my heart among the stars

I begged for light, you gave me flame

I burned alive inside your name

They say your love is infinite

Then why's my chest a bottomless pit?

You watched me shake, you heard me scream

You turned my soul into a dream

Dear God fuck you!

You gave me life, then ripped it through

You watched me rot and called it proof

That pain's a path to something new

Dear God fuck this!

This grief you shaped, this razor kiss

You stitched my wounds with barbed wire threads

Then called me strong while I played dead

I bit my tongue 'til it split in two

Held my breath while the trauma grew

You watched it all from your throne of lies

Counting souls while I tried not to die

Where were you when I broke that night?

When the pills ran out and I lost the fight?

When I carved your name in my fucking skin

Just to feel like you'd check in?

I was down on my knees in a bloodstained room

Eyes to the sky, just begging for truth

They told me pain is proof of grace

But grace don't leave you in this place

You turned my chest to a warzone beat

Heart like a bomb with a deadman's beat

You stitched your silence in my chest