My Chaos

My mind's a hurricane that never calms

A silent scream in a world that disarms

I lose pieces at every corner of the day

I win their smiles, but my agony stays

I jump between the shadows of who I could be

Chasing the new, but I can't break free

I wish I were normal, but it consumes my name

Even the normal drive me insane

I'm the captive of my chaos, trapped without a cause

Creating, inventing, but lost in my flaws

I wish to escape, to be free from this storm

But this whirlwind is all that keeps me warm

Tapping my feet, I stir my unease

Every task begins but never completes

A sweet reward now, a forgotten tomorrow

My broken system feeds my sorrow

Tests define me, but they can't feel my strife

Procrastination's my curse, time cuts like a knife

So many voices in the silence, so many lives in shards

I try to rebuild, but I'm left in the dark

I'm the captive of my chaos, trapped without a cause

Creating, inventing, but lost in my flaws

I wish to escape, to be free from this storm

But this whirlwind is all that keeps me warm

Tests define me, but they can't feel my strife

Procrastination's my curse, time cuts like a knife

So many voices in the silence, so many lives in shards

I try to rebuild, but I'm left in the dark

What if I could silence the confusion

What if this energy were my absolution

But every day's a challenge with no end in sight

A race with no finish line, no guiding light

I'm the captive of my chaos, trapped without a cause

Creating, inventing, but lost in my flaws

I wish to escape, to be free from this storm

But this whirlwind is all that keeps me warm

Now I'll just say goodbye

Goodbye to who I never was, to what gave me no peace inside