Felo de Se

I left thinking that I would be back

but I never did return

if you would forgive me I'd forgive myself

but forgiveness never has these terms

the sky was as dark as the thoughts I was thinking

it was ignored by the moon

if you would believe me I'd believe myself

but believing never comes this soon

The streets made a sound only my ears could hear

I was alone with the rats and raccoons

and your memory keeping me alive

as the clouds moved away from the moon

then silence it hit me is a way to speak clearly

a way to never say what you don't mean

but silence is useless in cases of torture

it just says God won't intervene

And this night like others is a sign for the way

that the gray air speaks for the dead

the air is as vague as the thoughts I have now

that these memories are just in your head

so I kept walking through the clouds that were lifting

to reveal what I'd thought

there was more fog behind the mist that seemed was the only

thing keeping me from what I sought

I turned around to walk back to the place

I had left thinking I would find

answers to the questions that I shouldn't ask

but the questions can't find a way to leave me behind