Close My Eyes

I ain't once try to move like a snake

So I can't be mad when they labeled you that

Incompatible down to the ions

In the mountains, where my hill to die on?

Heart colder than a fucking crayon

I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on

Hold up Drex, I just need a sec'

I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex

Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest

Learn to listen more, start speaking less

My own momma used to take me to the store

And then leave me, just to make me search for her

Had to leave a really good girl

'Cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her

If you feel the pain that I'm tryna lay

And you relate, then I'll hurt for you

If you tryna travel down this way and then end up lost

Just know I will search for you

I was like six, I wrote my first line

Opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly

You're blessed, but your working, you're learning the time

And it's due 'till like five, step out, burning a light

It's two forty-five in a church while I cry

The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry

Question my worth, do I deserve life?

Love you so much, save the hurt for the night

Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow

Closing that door again

Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow

Where does the start begin?

But I'm on the

Upside at the wrong time

Outside is on fire

Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow

(Why are you inside my head? My dear) She said, "Say what you want"

I ain't have words, these feelings untouched

Like I been holding onto your arm

Memories fade, I can't recall love

Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved

Same old shit with my heart loose

You ain't my friend, if you was, I forgave you

I wasn't enough, only thinking I save you

(Like I'm) Fight 'em wars myself

And I'm the only soldier still standing here

And found love through the grapevine

But I'm having trouble understanding it

There's white noise in the silence

From the aftermath of the argument

And gaslights when we break off

Now I just wanna be alone again

You break my heart by choice

Not that shit you make in your head

Feel my brain splat in my dreams

When I end my life instead

And this selfish bitch is my end

"Can't do anything," she said

Kill myself this time, for real

Blood stains on the edge of my head, like

Told my bitches, "I'ma make it alright"

There's four-hundred goals and I'm reaching that line

Stars have been falling and matters allies

But I left the earth for a moment to die

She's seen the vividest pictures of mine

Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies

She only know what I tell her

The pain is 'cause I don't want three of them serpents to cry