Lies I've told myself since you left

I'm doing so good on my own

I don't even check my phone, no more

And I wouldn't answer if you called

Who knew I loved being alone

Wish you could see how much I've grown

But I don't mind if you don't care at all

I'm staying out of trouble

But I miss sending double text

Explaining why my brain just

Processes everything wrong

I don't miss your subtle jokes

And I don't miss your cuddles

I don't miss how he knew

All the words to the same songs

I miss the crying on the phone

I miss the times that I had flown

Across the country to make you happy

But I know that you don't

I'm good at getting out of bed

I've found some peace inside my head

No more blood will be shed

'Cause I'll just talk it out instead

Dear God, I fucking love myself

So proud of my own mental health

I've just been adding to my wealth

And there's no pain to be felt

I'm just lying to myself

It's all I do since you left

I'd give up everything if

I could have you back instead

I've just being lying to myself

It's all I've done since you left

You were my everything now

I'm just by myself and out of breath