Own Worst Enemy

Spending all my change on a bus pass

Ain't that some shit

I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing

No food in the crib

I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy

I feel I ain't shit

I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success

See how the other half live

Ay

Tryna be better I wanna be different

But I don't know if I want that or to fit in

Been tossing this thought in my mind so forgive me

Not making this song for me to get pity

I just want it all

But man these money issues got me feeling like breaking the law

But I know I won't

But let's say I do

I do not know who I'd give my one call

I'm doing this all by myself

I try to be strong

I don't need nobody's help

I gotta make it and that is the mission

So I can't rely on just me by myself

I've gotta be open

I've gotta be honest

I've gotta be giving a hundred percent of me

I don't know if I can take negativity

I've got some thick skin

Don't ever think any different about it

But I am my weakness

Getting wrapped up in my thoughts and my feelings

Till I feel defeated

Then I just get heated

Cuz I feel I'm doubting myself every evening

I don't know how to get over it

Try to be fortunate

Do I deserve it though

No I don't know

No I don't know

No I don't know

I am my own worst enemy

Spending all my change on a bus pass

Ain't that some shit

I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing

No food in the crib

I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy

I feel I ain't shit

I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success

See how the other half live

Woo woo

Spending all my change on a bus pass

Ain't that some shit

I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing

No food in the crib

I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy

I feel I ain't shit

I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success

See how the other half live

Ay

I'm always writing depressing shit

I don't know how else to mention it

I feel like I'm always the kid who never wins

No matter what life I live

Well I might as well just try rapping then

Give me the pain

Give the abuse

Give me the hate

Give me the noose

Give me no friends

Give me the pen

Give me the Beat

I'll write some heat

That's the only reason people will fuck with me

I've got supporters but no one who's loving me

Just wanna be happy to some degree

I'm speaking musically

But in all honesty

This shit it fucks with me

I stress out to the point that I don't eat

A day is a week

A week like a day

With how much I seep

My life's on repeat

I feel the need

To wake up every single day

And feel like a slave to the game

Say all my shames through the pain

Doing all of what I do just to give you some heat

I know that I feel this way because of me

But that's the type of the grind that it's gotta be

I don't know if y'all are following I've been

Spending all my change on a bus pass

Ain't that some shit (Ain't that some shit)

I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing

No food in the crib (No food in the crib)

I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy

I feel I ain't shit (I feel I ain't shit)

I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success

See how the other half live

Woo woo

Spending all my change on a bus pass

Ain't that some shit (Ain't that some shit)

I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing

No food in the crib (No food in the crib)

I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy

I feel I ain't shit (I feel I ain't shit)

I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success

See how the other half live

Ay