Dissipate

I never asked for this burden

I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back

But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue

I can't leave it alone

So you can find me down at the bottom

With a stomach full of stones

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow

I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo

But I won't die pretending I'm not intending

To see this through until I too become invisible to you

So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace

Never wonder, I see it on your face

What do I have to do to demonstrate

The way it makes me feel and think?

I feel like I could fucking suffocate

And you would barely blink

I could suffocate and you would barely blink

So I'll sink, searching for an answer

With a stomach full of stones

These thoughts are like a cancer

Growing in my bones

I've made this hell my home

Never again, sever the sin from within my soul

The darker half that makes me whole

I was only dreaming

I was never here

I was only dreaming

Of how I'll disappear

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow

I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo

But I won't die pretending I'm not intending

To see this through until I too become invisible to you

(I was only dreaming)

Invisible to you

(I was never here)

But I won't die pretending

I'm not intending to see this through

Until I too become invisible to you

I long to leave the past behind

And tear out the thorn that's in my side