Angel In Lothian

Well an angel fell somewhere in Lothian

I was only a child but I trust my eyes

She burnt up like a comet before me

Before I could even say "Hi"

Saw kingdoms come and go in Bernicia

With a space station rattling above my head

And I saw the dead

I saw the dead

Back then, yeah, the door was always open

I'd come and go, back and forth, anytime I need

But I'm needing it more now than ever

As I'm fading away

And I'd claw at the door every bad night

But somehow it's blocked from the other side

Claw till my skin comes apart

Until I feel something

And I remember that pain in my mother

Being helpless and feckless and far too young

And my brother was spiralling down

He said "Kid, it's not me, it's this town"

So I rail against that feeling when it comes

I no longer have solitude behind that door

And I know drugs that can hold it

You gotta hold it yourself

I wish an angel fell somewhere in Lothian

She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix

Then one day I might have kids myself

And hope that I don't fuck them up myself

Hey!

(And I've been here, the door's always open)