A Place Devoted

I'm sorry dad

For forgetting to do everything you ask

I feel like I can't control

This violent war waging inside my skull

I have a vice that tends to me

A small gradual escape from all of this, it seems

But I can't keep running away from pain

I run my mind in circles

Soon I'll run my mind into the fucking grave

I'm sorry love

I took too long to learn I was not enough

I dreamt of a brick wall bedroom

A place devoted to the future I thought I knew

with you

This Hell only exists inside our heads

And we combat it with love from all our friends

And with love for every flaw we found instead

And for days we'll spend content

Or in distress or in regret

Everything will be beautiful in the end

This Hell only exists inside my head

And I'll combat it with strength that will avenge

And I'll flood the world with love that will infest

I've spent years waiting to live

And in distress and in regret

My life will be beautiful

Then it'll end