One Loser's Murmur

You say hello

I say goodbye

My mind afloat

An endless sky

The Dreams I Hoped

Those kept me alive

My stories gone

In hands of

Killers, bestowed with poison

Fillers, intoxicating

Order, The World of Grown Ups

Drowning, what had become my

Lifeline, to avoid my aching

Lifetime, to keep my struggle

Chaos, The World of Dreamers

Sinking, My will to be alive

You tell me, grow up

I tell you, I've always tried

My mind has been lost

between countless scars I have

I'll never grow up

I feel I will lose my heart

My soul has been lost

Between countless tears I've cried

I keep pretending

My smile never fading

I'm feeling the laughs of

The murmurs inside me

I've never seen me old

My vision is blurry

I'm feeling the pain of

My words crushed by loss

Mom, I promised something

To hear your voice

When praying for me

I wrote it

Dad, I'll tell you something

I don't hear God

When talking to me

I lost it

Mom, I've kept desiring

To hear your voice

The dreams that hold me

I've wrote them

Dad, I've stopped desiring

I don't hear God

The hopes that hold me

I've lost them