March 24th

Sitting in an empty room

Waiting for the temperature change

I poke my chin up to the sun

I still remember the rain

All the time I dropped the ball

I ball my fist from the pain

Pinning posters the wall

I sip my liquor and think

Every moment that I faltered

Led me up to the gates

Every life I ever altered

Do they think of me still?

Paint fading on the pictures

Just a mantle alone

I start to fade into the zone

I let the memories spill

Strangers in my phone

It's strange when you alone

Riding to some oldies

Till I'm making it home

I gotta level out the bad

I start to smile and it's gone

I think of revelry I had

I think of time how it's flown

All these lines in my face

All these aching from bones

All the grays in my head

Ain't no moss on my stones

Damn right I gave a grin when

I was broken within

Damn right I had some friends

That closed they eyes when I win

When I was singing all them songs

I was singing 'em wrong

Saying "make it make sense"

Then it's vacant at home

All the smiles from the crowd

I was taking it wrong

Thought I was bigger than the moments

Till the moment was gone

Who would've known that I was worth love?

Who would've known that I deserve that shit?

(Daddy, you're the best dad in the whole wide world)

Its 5 am I'm laying on an air mattress

Staring at my photo album

Asking what the fuck just happened?

Tripping on shrooms

Talking to god

He told find harmony

And left me all inspired

My shallow pride disarming me

I wore it like disguise

The smiles now alarming me

They turned into some cries