Forgive Me

I am searchin' for the meanin' in time

But there is still a spark in my eyes at night

You didn't think you would see me smile, please

Yes, I was the one, I can't love it when I see

Too many times I've cried

I ain't seen pops in a minute

I feel like a part of me missin'

The part that I never had

Why you think that I started sinnin'?

Mum tellin' me that I gotta rekindle

I'm findin' it hard to go listen

'Cah I'm like

If it's not broken why would I fix it?

Dad had an idea, mumzy pitched it

Like, "Look, he's in prison, he needs you on a visit"

I'm torn in three, head, heart, and spirit

'Cah they tellin' me things

But they all thinkin' different

I'm young, ain't into forgivin'

Got no love left, I've reached my limit

And I don't react for no reason

It's all cause and effect

I was showin' 'em love, never got none back

So my heart on E, emotional debt

At age fifteen, emotional wreck

I was famous, overthinkin', I was lost in my head

Let me tell you why

Dealin' with pressure the whole of my life

They call me potential, I gotta live up to

Ain't easy when they limit the sky

High, I was smokin' weed tryna clear my mind

Every dream I had I lost that sight

When you live in the dark you don't see light

But trust, I know 'bout life

I know 'bout struggle, I know 'bout strife

I know 'bout bein' a person everyone wanna be

But I just wanna be them

Every summer I got shipped out the ends

My childhood spent on set

Now you see why a man ain't got friends

Imagine bein' center of attention

And someone tryna get your attention

Half of their life, by then you're neglected

Ain't wanna get to know me, no incentive

I was callin' your phone, never got no reception

Only pic' that I got of us is me in reception

Now a man wanna know me, I should be makin' exceptions

The table's turned but this ain't redemption

Is it a crime if I say I was glad he got sentenced?

'Cah now we can sit and reflect it

And I done the same, so we get to connectin'

'Cah I'm learnin' to be forgivin'

When mumzy speak I listen

She sat me down said, "Life's too short, shouldn't be holdin' distance"

I got a way of blockin' out people, act like they never existed

But when she told me that, just know that my mindset shifted

I've been thinkin'

Why do I overthink things?

What if they actually want what's bestest?

Man, I can't see what they're thinkin'

Great minds actin' alike

Are you thinkin' what I'm thinkin'?

Snake me in front of my face

With the two eyes that I blink with

I need some space, so I might get-