Conscience

Is my conscience playing games?

Ain't gonna let it drive me insane

It's in my head all night and day

I'll tell myself it'll be okay

And in my mind it just replays

I try to take it day by day

I unwind and ride the waves

When I'm with him I feel okay

Just the other day I was speaking on my pain

Now I have her on my line and I feel okay

See her talk about rhymes that I wrote on the page

Have her running through my mind and it just replays

Look, imma take a sec just to put you in thought

Is she really listening or is she getting bored?

Is she really sleeping or are you getting ignored?

Did she really care when you were sitting in the ward?

Who are you the evil force up on my shoulder?

Of course she did care when I was under the boulder

I try to repay her with the gifts I bought her

She felt weighed down with the things I told her

But monetary things almost never last

You did a lot wrong when you look at the past

Your doubting everything you did, coz she gave you a chance

Is it really love or is it fake romance?

Honestly I won't listen to a word you say

All I hear is ridged metal when I peddle away

From your darkened presence so you should step away

Cause your speech is so beveled I will handle my way

Nah my speech is levelled and now I'm in your head

Maybe I should be careful about where I tread

Got you contemplating bout the things I said

And your thinking bout your actions leaving you in dread

Plus, You say that you love her but is it true?

Reality is never what appears in your view

Coz the grass is never green and the sky never blue

In other words do you think that she loves you?

I can't believe that we are having this conversation

I love her there's no debating the hatred I'll save for later

When I find a way to get you right up outta my face

Don't speak on insecurities you cant relate

Is my conscience playing games?