The Point

Did I pour too much information or emotion into it

Will my words be manipulated or held against me

Was I heard did I spark a positive thought

Is this ever going to change

Another night same glow of the phone

Voices repeat till I'm never alone

Every plan turns into dust mid air

Purpose feel rented faith on repair

I scroll through dreams that cost too much

Whisper God you still in touch

My head full of why my heart outta ink

So I drown my thoughts just not to think

What's the point if I keep fallin

Maybe the fall is the callin

Every ache just proof I'm still alive

Every tear another try

Same couch same clock tickin loud

Same doubts wearin hand me down shrouds

I talk to walls they echo my fear

Tell me change don't live here

But my kids still laugh in the other room

Little lights cuttin through the gloom

Maybe the point ain't to win or arrive

Maybe it's just to stay alive

If this pain's the teacher

Then I'm the class that never ends

But I'll keep takin notes

Till these scars make sense

I don't know the point

But I'm still here