If You're Watching

I think I've found what I'm looking for

Behind those eyes, an open door

That vacant stare which I adore

I'm your slut and you're my whore

Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain

Let us just make believe it's yesterday again

And mother, if you're watching, look away

And mother, if you're wondering but don't know what to say

Mother, if you're watching, look away

Just look away

I think I found what I'm looking for

So hit the lights and shut the door

Listen carefully, here's the score

I'm your slut and you're my whore

Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the shame

Let us just make believe it's yesterday again

And mother, if you're watching, look away

And mother, if you're wondering but don't know what to say

Mother, if you're watching, look away

Just look away

It sometimes makes me sick inside

Ashamed of a life that I must hide

I know you'll never understand

I'm sorry there's no wedding band

But deep inside there's still that child

Innocent in a world gone wild

Obedient of your moral code

Scarred by a Christian overload

But still I live by truth and love

I still have hopes in the above

I still have interest in the cross

But mother, if you're listening shut if off

Mother, if you're watching, look away

Just look away

Just look away

Just look away