If I Don't Stay Sober

Been a minute since I felt alive

Light a doobie then Im on cloud nine

Still searching for that peace inside

Through the tunnel til I find that light

Part of me that's incomplete

Validations what I seek

Conflict I tend to avoid

Til it starts catching up and there's no retreat

Joey passed away I ain't never been the same since

Running from my problems is the only way to deal with

Everything I feel but that will never fix shit

Karma gonna find you if you don't decide to face it

No amount of weed is gonna take away the pain felt

Dancing with the devil now I'm starting to enjoy hell

Maybe cuz I didn't get the closure why my Dad left

Hung me out dry hitting harder than my Step Dad

Rain pouring down as I'm sitting by the window

Time goes by but I'm still the same asshole

I'm still lost haven't found my closure

I'm okay If I don't stay sober

Rain pouring down as I'm sitting by the window

Time goes by but I'm still the same asshole

I'm still lost haven't found my closure

I'm okay If I don't stay sober

Goosebumps all over my skin

As I sit for a moment reminisce where I've been

Never been the type to fit in

So I got a little bitter cuz I'm not like them

Then I grew up and I realized quick

All the sh*t that I went through gave me strength

If I had to go back I would not change a thing

Cause it led me to right where I am

Always been an Outkast I'm a stubborn mutha fucker

Wear my heart on my sleeve and I love like no other

I cannot let it be I don't come with a filter

Stay calm as the sea that ain't me I'm reluctant yeah

Old habits I'm praying they die hard

Hennessy got me feeling like I'm Mozart

I don't make the right decision when I'm pissed off

Shoulda learned to walk away that be a good start

Rain pouring down as I'm sitting by the window

Time goes by but I'm still the same asshole

I'm still lost haven't found my closure

I'm okay If I don't stay sober

Rain pouring down as I'm sitting by the window

Time goes by but I'm still the same asshole

I'm still lost haven't found my closure

I'm okay If I don't stay sober

Took a wrong turn now I'm looking for the highway

Stubborn mutha fucker I prefer to do it my way

I can't breath

Suffocate my lungs with MJ

I can't sleep

I might have to call a sick day

Rain pouring down as I'm sitting by the window

Time goes by but I'm still the same asshole

I'm still lost haven't found my closure

I'm okay If I don't stay sober