Trenches

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides

Was going out on my shield

Years of fighting took their toll on me

All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed

I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me

Been there in 'em trenches, but nowadays I just fly

Was an overload of my senses, only darker hues in my sky

Don't expect the days to be painless mate, illuminate your own light

Resilience is empirical, I felt the heat in this ride

Now I know that hindsight is fruitful

Tryna remain on my path

And I don't wanna play the games that aren't useful

Planning my time it's so crucial

I see the world a lot clearer now, never graduate, still a pupil

And that's a lost art in humans, so the end result is so brutal

So brutal in these mad times so nuff man, ah gone cuckoo

Focused on these numbers like I's playing Sudoku

I stepped back and I realised all that focus is not fruitful

So I focused on my feelings and what came out was truthful

I ain't chasing papers and my yute he keeps me youthful

I don't seek acceptance, I don't need no ones approval

It's only love and light in life that I respond to

So you bring a darker energy, instant removal

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides

Was going out on my shield

Years of fighting took their toll on me

All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed

I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me

Time wasted but time is ticking, so time to face it

This year was beneficial, had me going back to basics

I've reconnected with myself, feel like a kid again

In love with music, sharpened up the pen, I'm that glitch in The Matrix

And I feel I've learnt so much but I'm down for more learning

They couldn't break me at my lowest, kept the fire burning

Know what's important going forward not the dough I'm earning

I've felt the pain, I see the change and now the tide is turning

Yeah, the tide is turning, every human being's deserving

The trenches made a man of me, I'm blessed to be emerging

Colder than the Artic plains, the time in there was disconcerting

And I'd explain it but it's actually hard to find the wording

It's like a constant stream of loss where self-esteem is skewed

And your perception of your worth develops into something crude

No interlude was in the final scene when I made a move

And I'm sorry for the time it took but let us pass this on to you

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides

Was going out on my shield

Years of fighting took their toll on me

All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed

I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me