If You Find Me

I used to run through darkness

With nothing but a name

Drawn in my breath

And written in my veins

I gave too much too early

To the ones who couldn't stay

But with you it was different

You were never just a game

You didn't need to say it

I could see it in your eyes

In the space between your sentences

In the way you didn't lie

You stayed in me like echoes

In a room no longer lit

And even now I whisper

Where I know you used to sit

If you find me

Not the girl I used to be

But the woman who still feels

If you find me

Don't be afraid to knock

The door is real

And so is this

If you find me

You know what we missed

I kissed you like remembering

A thousand lives before

Like I was waking something

You'd forgotten how to hold

And though I let the silence

Be louder than I meant

I never stopped hearing

How your breathing felt like home

If you find me

Don't come because I waited

Don't come to be forgiven

Come because you still remember

How I felt beneath your hands

Come because you want to

Not because you can

I'm not waiting not chasing

But I haven turned away

I still believe in timing

And in hearts that find their way

If you find me, let it be true

Let it be slow, let it be new

Not because we're broken

But because we still burn

If you find me

You know

It's your turn